Why do we lead such stressful lives? We seem to gather our meaning from being busy. Honestly, I've never been this person, I've organized my life in such a way that I don't have to be busy. I also never wanted to be in debt. It seems we are a busy, in debt, unhappy culture and we live our true lives on the weekends. I've also been content not attending "college" but every time someone asks me if I have a degree or what college I am learning Nutrition through I have to tell them that I didn't go to college and that my Nutrition course is a certification; this usually leaves an awkward pause in the conversation where I know they are internally questioning of the validity of my life. I wish we didn't define people by how much they work, how much money they make and where they got a degree. I've successfully run my own floral design business for 5 years, learned plant medicine at The School of Traditional Western Herbalism and in October I will be a certified Nutritional Therapist. And guess what; I am in zero debt.
Let me segway into something else. Lately, I have felt overwhelmed, it happens every summer in high wedding season. Have you ever thought about what wedding vendors go through? For me, I am in a triple threat kind of situation, I've got my creativity on display to be scrutinized, I have to be organized and successfully run a business/keep track of documents and money, while having meetings, taking deposits, planning out details, ordering flowers at the right time, picking them up and then delivering all by myself. Lastly, I am dealing with the high emotions that run around weddings. TRIPLE THREAT. I am a creative, emotional person, not a businesswoman. I am dirty, hairy and covered in goat hair, I am not a fancy wedding florist. I get so stressed out by events sometimes that I wonder why I even do this job! I've had this feeling for over a year now…but I had to push forward. Don't get me wrong, I love floral design, I just don't like the stress of everything else that comes along with it. So, I think it's time. Johnny and I are buying land this year and moving out of Portland. We plan on starting a farm/retreat center and I will focus more on my Nutritional Therapy.
So there you have it, I am phasing out of Forest & Field Floral Design. It feels good to say. I may start it back up when I can grow some of my own stuff on our property but for now, I am done. I'll be finishing out the rest of this wedding season and begin focusing on getting clients for Nutrition as well as doing some retreats and workshops. (this doesn't mean I won't consider doing some weddings, cause I definitely will.)
Let's lead lives that invigorate us. Let's lead lives that don't oppress others. Let's lead lives that aren't filled with stress and obligations. Let's be simple, let's be wild and free.
Bailey Patrice & Jonathan David